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WWE SMACKDOWN Presents The Road to WrestleMania!

WWE Rolls into SACRAMENTO Just 1 Week Before WRESTLEMANIA 26!



THE UNDERTAKER, EDGE & REY MYSTERIO

vs.

CHRIS JERICHO, CM PUNK & LUKE GALLOWS



- SMACKDOWN SIX MAN TAG TEAM MATCH -



Plus many more of your favorite SMACKDOWN Superstars in action including:

CHRISTIAN

KANE

MATT HARDY

JOHN MORRISON

R-TRUTH

MICHELLE MCCOOL

AND MANY MORE!!!

*Card is subject to change.





When:

Sunday, March 21, 2010

5:00PM



Where:

ARCO Arena



Ticket Information:

$72.50, $47.50, $32.50, $17.50 (Price includes $2.50 fee)



Parking info:

$12 - Toll Plazas Open at 3:00 PM



Promoter:

World Wrestling Entertainment



Doors open:

4:00 PM

At school

So I sit in my advisory and just write. So what is there to write about? Well one Anthony told off a guy on yahoo. So that was entertaining. I found out I might be prego, (three weeks to early to tell). I hate Valentines day. I just slept, cry, drank , adn cut. I don't have anymore herion to use, but I made due with what I had. So..what else..I worked on my Marvin the Marshin Cake. It's going good actally, but get tierd of wrapping fonduante around a stick for legs. Where going to get douls? lol I dont know how to spell it. I'm currently listening to Goodbye by Secondhande Serenade. Me and Chris got in a fight about his pyscho of a fiance. Who I told him to get back together with her because she is PREGO. So they are getting married for the worst reasons. So I get to watch him live our dreams and break in silence, even more!! hE SIAD HE STILL LOVED ME. The his girlie goes off and says she is going to kill me if I keep in contact with him! Saying I'm a fat ass biatch. WTF??? All I did was say goodnight and she goes fing crazy on me. John wants to get back together, but he broke my heart so what is the point??!!? He is also moving to Penn. Then I can't have Anthony who is just like my first love Steven. So how can I not fall in love again. It is so scary. I want to stranggle him then just kiss him. I miss Steven I really do and always will. 5 days and 1 month will be two years he has been gone. It feels like forever. I wish he didn't run because we both knew he was going to get caught. There was a poem/prayer he always said to me before we went to bed and I cant find. It's from the Mastery of Love book. If you find it please comment me and tell me where at.

In Loving Memeory

Steven Hudges: I miss you. You were my first love. You taught me to wait through the hardest times, but now your gone. It has been almost 2 years. March 21, 2008. I dream nd think of you every night. I can still hear your voice. I was so inlove to a point now I will join you. You were only 17. You didn't deserve to die, you died the worst way. I still can't get the images out of my mind. I probably wont. I have to deal with all the shit I get for being called a liar. But when in love you don't care who or why they say it. I really miss you. 2 years and your gone. I don't know where your burried to even visit you. It is so cruel! I can't live with out those last words I heard. "I love you. I'm sorry. Tonight is the night I'm running", I told you not too! You where going to get caught, and you did. How could they have done that to you. You where so young, you were in love. We were each others first love. We waited together. We had so much waiting for us. We could have made it. Why did you go??!!? My gaurdian please. Please....

My love

So now I have to go tell my pshcartrist that nothing is wrong when all I want to do is scream and cry. I need to be dead. I lost Ana, Jessica M., Anthony, Casey, Sam, Chris, Jacob, Jordan, fuck I'm having to resort to being a lette. aka right now just a Prospect. WTF. I'm still living outside. I'm depressed. I'm upset. I can make other people happy, but then again they have a piece of me when I pass. I just have to soon, this world is to cruel for me. I'm just done. I just need to think of a way.

I wait for a savour who cares

I wait for the time I wake up and smile

I wait for you to be there

I wait for her to come back

I wait for the bars to open up

I wait...

I wait

But my love I can't anymore

I can't be so broken and waiting

I love you my dearest, but to my self

I owe a promise

So my dear close your eyes and forget

Just a nightmare in a dream

My love....

Well.....

Well as you can read it didn't work out so well. I'm doing okay now upset that he blew me off. Saw Sherlock Holmes, good moive, but wasn't really watching or paying attention. I do honestly lov my friends, just lately I don't want to be around anyone. I fcuking hate my life and just want to die. How can a urge be so strong on death. I tried to kill myself again. I took alot of nyquil and passed out with a plastic bag over my face. but later i found out my dad took the bag of my head! I was so close I could just see it. Now at school I have to fake even more. I hate it, I can honestly say  hate it. I'm so tierd of being the one breaking. No one cares. Anthony told me off because when ever me and him talk its about me getting him a free pack. That gets so annoying after a while. I'm so tierd of laying back and faking it all the time.