I WANT TO GO

WWE SMACKDOWN Presents The Road to WrestleMania!

WWE Rolls into SACRAMENTO Just 1 Week Before WRESTLEMANIA 26!



THE UNDERTAKER, EDGE & REY MYSTERIO

vs.

CHRIS JERICHO, CM PUNK & LUKE GALLOWS



- SMACKDOWN SIX MAN TAG TEAM MATCH -



Plus many more of your favorite SMACKDOWN Superstars in action including:

CHRISTIAN

KANE

MATT HARDY

JOHN MORRISON

R-TRUTH

MICHELLE MCCOOL

AND MANY MORE!!!

*Card is subject to change.





When:

Sunday, March 21, 2010

5:00PM



Where:

ARCO Arena



Ticket Information:

$72.50, $47.50, $32.50, $17.50 (Price includes $2.50 fee)



Parking info:

$12 - Toll Plazas Open at 3:00 PM



Promoter:

World Wrestling Entertainment



Doors open:

4:00 PM

At school

So I sit in my advisory and just write. So what is there to write about? Well one Anthony told off a guy on yahoo. So that was entertaining. I found out I might be prego, (three weeks to early to tell). I hate Valentines day. I just slept, cry, drank , adn cut. I don't have anymore herion to use, but I made due with what I had. So..what else..I worked on my Marvin the Marshin Cake. It's going good actally, but get tierd of wrapping fonduante around a stick for legs. Where going to get douls? lol I dont know how to spell it. I'm currently listening to Goodbye by Secondhande Serenade. Me and Chris got in a fight about his pyscho of a fiance. Who I told him to get back together with her because she is PREGO. So they are getting married for the worst reasons. So I get to watch him live our dreams and break in silence, even more!! hE SIAD HE STILL LOVED ME. The his girlie goes off and says she is going to kill me if I keep in contact with him! Saying I'm a fat ass biatch. WTF??? All I did was say goodnight and she goes fing crazy on me. John wants to get back together, but he broke my heart so what is the point??!!? He is also moving to Penn. Then I can't have Anthony who is just like my first love Steven. So how can I not fall in love again. It is so scary. I want to stranggle him then just kiss him. I miss Steven I really do and always will. 5 days and 1 month will be two years he has been gone. It feels like forever. I wish he didn't run because we both knew he was going to get caught. There was a poem/prayer he always said to me before we went to bed and I cant find. It's from the Mastery of Love book. If you find it please comment me and tell me where at.

In Loving Memeory

Steven Hudges: I miss you. You were my first love. You taught me to wait through the hardest times, but now your gone. It has been almost 2 years. March 21, 2008. I dream nd think of you every night. I can still hear your voice. I was so inlove to a point now I will join you. You were only 17. You didn't deserve to die, you died the worst way. I still can't get the images out of my mind. I probably wont. I have to deal with all the shit I get for being called a liar. But when in love you don't care who or why they say it. I really miss you. 2 years and your gone. I don't know where your burried to even visit you. It is so cruel! I can't live with out those last words I heard. "I love you. I'm sorry. Tonight is the night I'm running", I told you not too! You where going to get caught, and you did. How could they have done that to you. You where so young, you were in love. We were each others first love. We waited together. We had so much waiting for us. We could have made it. Why did you go??!!? My gaurdian please. Please....

My love

So now I have to go tell my pshcartrist that nothing is wrong when all I want to do is scream and cry. I need to be dead. I lost Ana, Jessica M., Anthony, Casey, Sam, Chris, Jacob, Jordan, fuck I'm having to resort to being a lette. aka right now just a Prospect. WTF. I'm still living outside. I'm depressed. I'm upset. I can make other people happy, but then again they have a piece of me when I pass. I just have to soon, this world is to cruel for me. I'm just done. I just need to think of a way.

I wait for a savour who cares

I wait for the time I wake up and smile

I wait for you to be there

I wait for her to come back

I wait for the bars to open up

I wait...

I wait

But my love I can't anymore

I can't be so broken and waiting

I love you my dearest, but to my self

I owe a promise

So my dear close your eyes and forget

Just a nightmare in a dream

My love....

Well.....

Well as you can read it didn't work out so well. I'm doing okay now upset that he blew me off. Saw Sherlock Holmes, good moive, but wasn't really watching or paying attention. I do honestly lov my friends, just lately I don't want to be around anyone. I fcuking hate my life and just want to die. How can a urge be so strong on death. I tried to kill myself again. I took alot of nyquil and passed out with a plastic bag over my face. but later i found out my dad took the bag of my head! I was so close I could just see it. Now at school I have to fake even more. I hate it, I can honestly say  hate it. I'm so tierd of being the one breaking. No one cares. Anthony told me off because when ever me and him talk its about me getting him a free pack. That gets so annoying after a while. I'm so tierd of laying back and faking it all the time.

12- 17- 09

I came back from the hospital and nothing has changed. I'm still cutting, drinking, burning, erasing, and try to kill myself. My nephew got away with everything!! I'm so destroyed, this why I didn't open up my mouth. Then the guy who said would always listen, I fell in love with, but not meant to be I guess. I' breaking so quietly I don't even have brought suspicions to my dreams. I can't handle being in this house with him. How can me the victim be under punishment and then be told I'm the rapist when a girl can't be!!! How can I not cry every night and cut when I don't feel safe in my own house! I'm so close to falling again, this time I wont show the signs. Plus my parents or aka my mom wont let me hang out with anyone who knows about what my older nephew did to me! Which is messed up!!! Why me!?! Fucking hate this cruel world. Then now I'm raising my little nephew who is 9. My sister is a bitch to him so I told her off and he stays with me 24/7. I can't leave him, but I can't stop crying. He has ADHD and his dad flipped when he heard this. He doesn't believe in using medication so now since his son is on it he disowned him! Then his brother beats him, treats him like a slave, and is an ass to him. Now he sleeps in my room so I can watch him. I pick him up from school, help him get his work done, feed him, and go to the parents teacher meetings to know if something going wrong or great. Now since it's close to Christmas I have been saving my money so I can get him a nice gift. I have two jobs. I'm taking on so much responsibility that I shouldn't have! Please who ever reads this know that even if I don't know you I love you, I really do. I would have done anything to make you happy and have meet you. So my darling I have to go.

In memories of my ex baby Bayleigh  http://www6.zippyshare.com/v/89784630/file.html
Hope you can be happy as more with out me.

Anthony I'm happy you cared. I do regret pissing you off so much, just had to make sure you could forget me easily. I really do like you, but your right you don't need a relationship. I hope you can find a girl.

Ana i will miss my Chipparrot but we know it would come to this and I'm sorry. Please remeber I love you and so does graham. Never don't this in stake of my memory.

Cameron, Graham, Dilbo, and Matt (GOD) thank you for always caring and being there for me. You are my brother forever.

Rain, Sierra, Allison, Jessica,  Erica, and Gabby Never forget to keep your head held high and never doubt the possibilities. I love you guys.

School AKA Whole Life

I'm so so done with people butting into my buisness about me and bayleigh. I want to fuc up anyone who says another thing to me about it. I have to go to the doctors today =( My nephew got caught so there is a weight off my shoulder. Now I have the nurden of what I'm doing to halp parents pay bills and buy food. I feel like a whore to be honest. I'm kinda just I dont know anymore. I want to play the game Russian Roulette accept let me be the only player and let me be the winner to happiness. I have been addicted to the song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jEbc48xe20I Very good song. Just shows me and my life. I can't wait to play by myself.