October 4-9, 2009

Today was okay, but I just can't seem to erase things from my mind. I got beat up at school. I'm feeling iscolated more. I'm still cutting. Been drinking more. We won our score board proposal for swim team. Anywas what happened this week was just un forgivable. everyone is trying to start something me and Anthony, but I dont like him. He is just my friend. Right now I just need his support aslong as with Heather's. I'm so tierd of hearing people say "I love you" because it's never true. How can I beleive it? I can go sit in a corner and cry and no one would notice or care. I can cut myself and no one would care. After exhibition I'm probably going to the mental hospital for a while. =-/ So my whole advisory from freshman to sophnmore hate me